I’ve had enough of the brave face – I hate it here!!!!

OK – this week is just going to be one long rant and rave! It is going to be very negative. All of the negative feelings that I have been fighting away for the last 4 and half months are about to explode on this screen. It may not be pretty – parental guidance advised!

Things that are bugging me now:

When I am walking on the footpath(sidewalk) and there is only enough people for 3 people wide and there are 3 people coming towards me – surely one of them has to give in and leave space for me to pass?!?! Never – I always seem to be the one that gives way. Well I am fed up of it and from now on I am going to walk my line!!! Even when its one on one I seem to be the one who moves. Maybe I am just too considerate to other people but it doesn’t look like there are a lot of people out there with the same attitude.

Tits. Yes tits! They are fecking everywhere! Not the full version – just the cleavage. Man, something about Irish women that they just want to flash their cleavage at every available opportunity! Its not fair!

Can I stare? No – that would be offensive! Well I am sorry – you flashing your boobs at me all the time is offensive to me! Cover them up! Would you want me walking around with one of my balls showing? I didn’t think so!

Fat people – OK – I am including myself in this but I cover up! I don’t flash my oversize beer belly everywhere! Im not that proud of it anyway! But going to meetings with your belly hanging over your boob-tube is just NOT right! Put it away woman!

Dogs – kill them all! I think they know I am on a crusade against them. There is some secret society of dogs that has heard of my plans and they are barking the warnings across the world. Last week I was just going for a walk (weaving through the traffic) and this little fecker just went for me. No reason – I was just walking. His owner came out of the house and told me not to worry. Easy for him to say as he is not the Osama Bin Laden of the dog world! I told him that if he didn’t get his mutt away from me I would kick him to death – and the dog would be next!!!!!

Weather. What the hell is going on??!? It has been miserable weather for the last 6 weeks. This is supposed to be summer. Man, I have had it with this shite! Every time I want to go for a walk (got the impression that my “fix” in life is going for a walk?) it starts to rain – and then when I sit down the sun shines. Someone up there is literally pissing down on me.

So how do I feel about being back in Ireland? Pretty damn crap actually! This has definitely been the worst week since I came home. I have really been trying to put a brave face on things and I have been doing very well. PMA – Positive Mental Attitude!

Thats a whole load of baloney. THere is nothing that is worth staying for. What? Sausages? Yeah – i suppose they are OK and maybe even a rasher here and there but I can get them sent over to somewhere else in the world.

Biggest question I am facing now is whether or not Thailand is the place that I want to be. I think its not! If I really think straight and remember all the things that annoyed me about Thailand I think they are still there. English language skills just really ranks with me. I can speak Thai but just not good enough to be able to play with words.

One thing I love about being home is that I can talk without having to think and I dont have to explain myself every fwe minutes. People understand my accent and they even get my jokes! I can be funny sometimes!

So where to next? The moon perhaps? I just dont know. Maybe this is just my first menopause?!?!?!?

These guys are all crooks! All of them! They are just in it for the power rush and so that they can line their pockets using our money!

I think I am just too honest to be able to tell people what they want to hear but at the same time do something completely different. Politicians are up there with Estate Agents, Recruitment Consultants and priests!!!!!

I think the Irish govenment are still on holidays. Arent they always!??!!?

The Mahon Tribunal is getting interesting now. Bertie will be up to say his bit over the next few weeks. I think he is crooked. He was dealing in suitcases (not just envelopes) of cash when he was Minister of Finance. That in itself is dodgy. But the fact that a lodgement in his account equates exactly to a dollar figure is highly suspicious – especially cause he said he never dealt in Dollars and that there were a few meetings with contacts of Ray Burke (another dodgy Fianna Fail guy) with American investors for Bertie Bowl!

HIghly suspicious stuff and I hope Bertie gets caught with his pants down!

In Thailand there has been few developments on the political scene. However, there have been a lot of negative statistics coming out regarding the economy. New car sales are down, Thai Baht is extremely strong against the dollar meaning that Thai exports are struggling!

There is definitely a lot of money going into Asia recently and I think Thailand is gaining from this – purely because of its geographical position. I dont think the investments are based on sound economic principles! I really don’t. I think that the economy is going to suffer for the next 2 years and that it is NOT a good time to do any investment in Thailand. You may be able to make some short-term gains but the risk is very high!

GAA is still going strong. Dublin playing Laois at the moment – anyones game.

Still a lot of transfer speculation and I am looking forward to the start of the new Premier League.

Wimbledon passed last week without too much excitement – I think it has lost a lot of its appeal. Maybe some more rule changes are required?

I am still going to get around and join the local tennis club but cause the weather has been so bad I havent bothered my arse at all. BUt I will!

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I really like my Nokia phone. It is working well as my MP3 player and the phone quality really is great.

I am still working on quite a few big projects in my own spare time and they are moving along nicely. I am using my Thai developers and the quality of their work is very impressive. It is way better than any of the work I have seen here in Ireland – and the costs dont compare at all!

During the week I met up with all the lads. 7 of us went for a pint (or 2!). The amount of planning that we had to go through just to get a few lads together was mad! All the lads need to apply for a pass from their partners/wives/dogs. It used to be easy just to meet someone for a pint or 2 – not any more!

But the crack was mighty and it was great to catch up with them all. It was almost like I was never away. Pints like this are much more enjoyable. Sitting around and having a chat.

However, back to the moaning part. Going out on the town in Ireland and expecially Dublin can be a right pain in the arse and it can cost a small fortune.

First, you have to get a taxi into town – the weather is shite and the buses are completely unpredictable. Then you have to queue to get into a pub (in the rain) and when you make it in there then you have to find a seat – or just a place to stand! Then the infamous round starts and I end up buying pints for a group of people. I have to go to the bar (no table service) and try as hard as I can to get the attention of the barman. I am only a small guy so I get ignored for ages and he is distracted by all the girls flashing their cleavage!

Eventually I get the pints and I cant carry them all so I have to go on 2 runs. By the time I make it back to get the second lot of pints they have already been nicked! Man, I hate drinking out in Dublin!

I am down in the dumps at the moment. I havent been sleeping well lately and I get realy grumpy – you might have guessed if you have read all of this weeks rant!

I really want to drag myself out of this slump but it just isnt easy. However, today I made plans with Nang for me to visit Thailand in October and she will come back with me. At least that is something to look forward to!

When I am back in Thailand in October I really have to see if it is the place for me. I think I will know a lot more after Nang has lived in Ireland for a while. Putting it all together I will be in a better place to make an informed decision.